It is like that which I have ever known
But I find a joy in it
This warm caress that rolls across my skin
The sun warming rays come to me
They are not like the icy cold of my true self
But yet
I bask in its refreshing heat
And while I enjoy this newness now
I know a time will come when its enduring light will begin to burn
Slowly it will turn my blood red
It will cause my skin to break and fall away
I know pain will come
For now though
I shall enjoy this newness
I will wonder as the feeling returns to my frozen numb body
I will weep with joy as my heart turns from its frigid state to one of life
And one day
I shall find that I no longer remember my former self
I will no longer recall my dark world of ice
The noon sun has come
It now hides all my shadows
All my darkness
All my faults
The sun moves again
As I knew it would
It will set me afire
But for a while
This strange sensation will encase me
Envelope me
But this closeness becomes my prison
I scream for freedom
Bursting forth
The morning star burns with a new fever
I fall
But my shadows lengthen
The fire that consumes and tortures me
Tears my soul in two
It will chill me
Darkness approaches
Lost memories flood my mind
Dispare at that loss will over-whelm me
Lost are my days of pure darkness
Lost are my days of blissful, shining warmth
The sun vanishes
The moon forsakes me
I stumble and fall
Everything is chilled to nothing
And yet
The icicles pierce to the surface of my skin
Biting me
Telling me to forget
And eventually
I do
No more do I remember the sun's light
All I know is the soothing bite of frozen darkness
I embrace it
And its claws cling to me
I have found my way home
And yet
I know I will stray again
Just as I knew I would return home
The sun shall rise again
And beckon me forth
Into the cycle of suffering
Of love